segunda-feira, 3 de maio de 2010

New Life

Actually, I don’t know exactly the reason why I am venturing myself. I have been warned by my co-workers that I don’t have any talent for writing. Maybe what I have is a big grasp of reading and that’s it. But, perhaps, what I have to say should be much more than simple rhymes and beautifully arranged words. Perhaps what I should be saying that I do not belong. Anywhere I go, there is a little voice reminding me that I do not belong. But, what and who has the guts of saying who belongs and to what, and to where? Let me remind you, I was born in Brazil, lived in São Paulo for 27 years of my life, moved to LA for a short while to stay with a Native American boyfriend. I felt completely marooned there, with him, with myself. I’ve come back home, started studying, finished an accomplished masters in Northern Irish poetry and started a PHD which resulted in my going to Belfast. But, not so fast, before that I was accepted as a professor in the Federal University of Bahia, Salvador. If you don’t know the story of Salvador, google it. Wikipedia will give you a better answer that anyone would. But, I’ve yet to know Salvador and its daily routine. I’ve forgone opportunities to be in Belfast to be in Salvador. Anyway, this chapter is way too much complicated for me to summarize its ins and outs in a few sparse lines. From this lesson, I learned that if you don’t have money, you’re screwed, of to put it in better terms, history is made my men under the conditions that are presented to him. In other words, history is told once as tragedy, and then again as farce, and then again as a punch in the stomach. Blood will be always on your mouth and you’ll taste its bitter sweet compulsion. I am going to Salvador this week. I’ll visit my new home and start a new life. If you think this is of any use, please come along with me and bear my spelling, grammar and collocations mistakes. After all, we have nothing but language to make sense of our experience. But language, I do not master, and I do not know how to beautifully arrange its organizing principles…

5 comentários:

Guillaume disse...

Great Viviane. Congrats for the coming back to the blog. Looking forward to reading some more.

The tone disse...

Nice to see you here, but I guess this summary does not do justice to the universe you are. There are the overtones, the mediation...
Go and be gauche... you know what it is like. Don't try to be beautifully arranged. You are top already. Silly who thinks otherwise.

Rodrigo Monteiro disse...

Muito bom.

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